April 2010
3 posts
Who could love me? I am out of my mind.
10 things you want -to be with my girlfriend right now. -new pants -new shoes -to be happy 24/7 -to learn how to do something cool -sleep -cigarettes -books -seth and gretchen to stop fucking fighting. -materialistic things
9 musicians/bands you love (in no order) -animal collective -conor oberst -the postal service -fun. -sufjan stevens -girls -tilly and the wall -radiohead -matt...
i should be dead? ......
1. smoked. 2. consumed alcohol. 3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex. 4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex. 5. kissed someone of the same sex. 6. had sex. 7. had someone in your room other than family. 8. watched porn. 9. bought porn. 10. tried drugs. TOTAL: 9
1. taken painkillers. 2. taken someone else’s prescription medicine. 3. lied to your...
since i feel like i need to, here's a list of...
i’ve felt like a shitty boyfriend the past couple of days.
well, here goes nothing. these are some things that i like about Rachel
her laugh - a fast high pitched noise, not obnoxious though. just right
her voice - very soft. very outspoken.
her smile - the whitest teeth hidden under pale pink lips.
the way that she forgives
her open mind
the thing she does with her eyes when...
February 2010
10 posts
I took it like a grown man, crying on the pavement...
I haven’t heard a thing you’ve said in at least a couple hundred days, what’d you say? I was in the front seat, shaking it out and I was asking if you felt alright. I never want to hear the truth. I want to hear your voice, it sounded fine. My voice it sounded fine.
——
You know what, times like these I usually say “Fuck everything”, “Fuck...
FINALLY.
Phil and Jullian are here. About time, fuck. Chilling with them, going out to lunch. Reconnection bitchessss.
All alone again.
Well, well. Uhm yeah =x
Just want to find out what you're nice to me for.
Fuck trying.
It’s not worth it anymore. Nothing’s really worth it anymore.
I am certain of this and I am not certain of...
I’m not sure if I’ll regret this or if I’m completely content with it. So far, I like where this is heading..
this was a choice, this was never a mistake.
i'm sorry for everything about me that hurts you.
think about what you said on the phone. if i die alone it’s my own fault. i’m a shadow that whispers stupid songs about his heart. i’m sorry, i’d give myself a hand.
January 2010
12 posts
enough is enough.
January 29, 2010.
Woke up an hour ago, Blogging… Seriously, what’s gotten into me. Hah, oh well. At about 7:00 last night, I threw out all my cigarettes. At 8:00 last night, I threw out my pipe. At 8:30, I gave all my weed to David. At approximately 9:00, I poured out all my alcohol. 9:30, I told all my friends to fuck themselves. I’m starting fresh. Like all of the things...
he always gets so mad things you laugh at. ”don’t get so worked up”, you’d say. but on the back deck you admit that you haven’t felt much like laughing lately anyway, and so i say “that could change”. i noticed how you waste no time making your way across the room. you leave a wake of tongues still waving after you and it isn’t no coincidence where...
well fuck me sideways.
pull back the sheets and climb in bed with me we can talk all night i’m not tired, are you? i’m not tired, are you? did you like the party? did you see any pretty girls there? not that it matters neither of us are alone neither of us are alone but sometimes it feels that way so i need a sign, give me your hand no more life as expected, i’m through with the usual i want to fall in...
cartoons and forever plans.
and did you know my glass is never empty. and did you know I’m not as fragile as I thought. and did you know my love will never die.
getting shit out there.
we’re fine now. i’m finding myself at the bottom of a bottle, when the nicest person i’ve ever met is not nice enough. and if all i’ve ever wanted was better than the ordinary, if i can’t find anything better than what i hoped for. i’m never going to stop picturing you in that red dress you wore. things were getting good. did everything your way. you were happy,...
forgive me, love. these thoughts are not my own....
December 2009
6 posts
fuck.
thewaterisrising:
jesusofsuburbiaisalie:
shit, im fucking grounded. so i’m sneaking on right now. god damn, my dad’s a dick.
goodbye computer for three months.. -_- until the next time i sneak on.
WHOAWHOAWHOA ! ? ! ? No talking to you for 3 fucking months ? What the hell . Im gonna cry . :x
probably less than that because i am able to sneak on wednesdays and...
fuck.
shit, im fucking grounded. so i’m sneaking on right now. god damn, my dad’s a dick.
goodbye computer for three months.. -_- until the next time i sneak on.
Formspring :
thewaterisrising:
I’d like to look like this: black hair, really pretty big GREENBLUE eyes, big lips, super white teeth, amazing smile, cute little nose in between pointy and curved, CARAMEL TAN SKIN, 5 0, around 120 pounds, PERKY 36c , usually wears black eyeliner, long wavy sex hair. (yes I basically modified your paragraph)
I guess everyone usually wants to look different than they alread...
sasha.. aim?
it's only you beautiful, or i don't want anyone....
i’m starting to realize that i’m fucking nothing. actually no, i’m less than nothing. i have no purpose at all in this world. i really don’t think that i’ve impacted anyone’s life in any way whatsoever. i should have listened to you when you said that i don’t matter. chances are, if i suddenly disappear right now no one will even know i’m gone like i...
karma’s gonna get you back for every foul word you ever spoke, for every lie you’ve ever told, for every time you’ve made me feel like a fucking joke. you’re tongue half way down his throat, i hope he knows what you’re capable of. you have no idea what kind of hell you can promote. but i’m in the way of shit now, aren’t i? you and him were meant to be...
November 2009
1 post
1 tag
October 2009
2 posts
i'm all over you, i'm not over you.
i’m sick of having these one night stand type of things with you. i want to go back to the way it was before.. well, not even in the boyfriend girlfriend sorta thing. i just want to be friends again. now you hate me, now your friends hate me, now your parents hate me. i mean fuck. all i want to do is get along.
oh man.
sasha mo’fuckin’ gabrielle morales… shit. i don’t quite know what to write here, but it’s supposed to be about how much i love her. which is a lot. a whooooole lot. while i’m stuffing my face with this here taco, i’m thinking, “man… what do i love more than this..” 1. moustaches, 2. sombreros, 3. mice, & 4. sasha. well i wasn’t...
September 2009
8 posts
seems like only yesterday, life belonged to...
every sound, monotone. every color, monochrome. light began to fade into the black. such a simple animal, sterilized with alcohol. i could hardly feel me anymore. desperate and meaningless, all filled up with emptiness, felt like everything was said and done. i lay there in the dark and i close my eyes. you saved me the day you came alive.
i found you just in time.
i need her right now. i’m seeing her though, tomorrow.
so that’s pretty good. gets my mind off of the terrible shit that’s been going on.
when everybody else refrained, my uncle Johnny did...
this sounds about right, well right about now.
i feel so alone. but i feel like i need to be somewhere else.
racey days, help me through the hopeless haze.
but my oh my, tragic eyes i can’t even recognise myself behind. so if the answer is no, can i change your mind? out again, a siren screams at half past ten and you won’t let go while i ignore that we both felt like this before it starts to show, so if i had a chance, would you let me know? why aren’t you shaking? step back in time. graciously taking, oh your too kind....
FREDDIE ! MY BABY BOY ! THE BEST FRIEND I COULD...
sashagabrielle:
jesusofsuburbiaisalie:
sashagabrielle:
Happy Fucking Birthday . I love you so much . <3333
thank you sasha <3 :]
YOURE WELCOME FREDDALOO ! I miss you btw .
i miss you too. where’ve you been?
FREDDIE ! MY BABY BOY ! THE BEST FRIEND I COULD...
sashagabrielle:
Happy Fucking Birthday . I love you so much . <3333
thank you sasha <3 :]
happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy...
His voice is the last thing Im going to hear...
sashagabrielle:
And Im perfectly fine with that .
I didnt get my AP Psych work done and chances are , Im going to get in troublr for it .
I dont really care at this point . I can make up a good excuse .
Goodnight , for real . <3
yo, i haven’t talked to you all day.
August 2009
118 posts
Freddie .
sashagabrielle:
My camera is gone . Like its broken . I did it today . And then I gave the camera to my mom and she forgot that it had a crack and she must have done something to it and now like , the whole camera is fucked . I have to find my old one and record it again because it broke before I could upload it . -___-
for really real? >:[ you should go on aim though.
sasha.
what the FUCK man.
hello, i am freddie.
and i am one boring motherfucker.
some brother time right now.
with jullian.
hey, hey sasha. fuck you.
sashagabrielle:
jesusofsuburbiaisalie:
sashagabrielle:
jesusofsuburbiaisalie:
you’re pretty, and i’m going to kill you if you say no. :]
hey , hey freddie . fuck you too .
Im not pretty . So you can kill me now . (:
shut the FUCK up.
you shut the FUCK up . I swear to god , I will hug kill you if you call me pretty again . hahaha . (x
i will kill you if you say you’re...
hey, hey sasha. fuck you.
sashagabrielle:
jesusofsuburbiaisalie:
you’re pretty, and i’m going to kill you if you say no. :]
hey , hey freddie . fuck you too .
Im not pretty . So you can kill me now . (:
shut the FUCK up.
hey, hey sasha. fuck you.
you’re pretty, and i’m going to kill you if you say no. :]
in Target.
jesse: where's the porn section?
phil: i think it's with all the books.
jesse: oh, that makes a lot of sense.
phil: they want little kids to pick it up and show their mommy's.
jesse: -picks up playboy-
phil: don't do it.
jesse: -goes up to random lady- why is she only wearing undies?
random lady: so she can give young men erections, i believe.
